What I failed to realize

I failed to realize that your friends are not always going to be there.

What I failed to realize is smoking weed doesn’t make friends.

What i failed to realize is other people see me completely misconstrued.

I failed to realize that it only takes a few dumbass decisions to fuck up your life.

I Also failed to realize that being lonely doesn’t go away by surrounding yourself with people.

I failed to realize that people arent always what they seem.

I also failed to realize that ALL people are always in it for themselves.

I failed to realize that the world is bigger than bumfuck Hope Mills, North Carolina

and i failed to realize that no matter where you go, its a cold world out there

I failed to realize that friends go apart, boys lie, and weed is a distraction

I failed to realize how much time i wasted putting everything I had into being wanted

I failed to realize that money is all people value

and I failed to realize how to have fun without spending it

i failed to realize that acceptence only temporarily helps self esteem

and failed to realize that i’ve always had none

I failed to realize that people are manipulative, and will take advantage of you through superficial relationships

I failed to realize that I don’t have a place on this earth to call home

but I now realize that home is where the heart is, and because of where my heart is, home doesn’t exist.

My heart isn’t a multitasker

It can’t deal with bull-shit, AND pumping blood. I settle for the latter.

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